Tuesday, May 31, 2005
my blog is simply rotting.. hahahs.. so busy nowadays. bleaghs.
lols.
okae lah. im partly to blame, keep staying out at friend's house. hahhas. =D
but it's fun.
what more need i say..?
Monday, May 23, 2005
wahahhas.
went to play
pool with
yinwen, wenyong, waimun and nelson. muahahs. damn shiok. at first met yinwen, wenyong and wenxing at wisma the mac there. hahas. then hear them talk about their past experiences at gym competitions very funny; was grinning and luaghing most of the time. hahahs..! then took train to dhoby guat, where wenyong got his new number. made our way to parklane and start playing pool. muahhahhas. watch them play one game.. then played against yinwen, then wenyong.. then duno no. what game yinwen left to meet waimun. lols. then i continue playing with wenyong. was surprisingly okae. after waimun come.. then me not much focus, so play like shit.. continued like this till around the end. nelson joined us at about 5.30 like that. played for like.. 4hours..? hahahs. 1.30- 6. okae. it's more than 4h. -.-" hahahs. so sastifying. wahahs. had some fries at the plaza sing the mac. woots. hahas. then.. took train to marina bay and back again. now im home. with maths corrections and reflections undone. -.-" hahhs. think i will sleep very early tonight. and wake up early tomorrow morning? =] hahahs! ^.^
lols.
let me do something weird.
i sympathise with the poor girl whom you've decided to inflict your love on. =P opps. cruel me. i bet u feeling murderous towards me now? hahas. chill.. hope you dont hurt any more girls sia.. hhaahs.
or maybe let me be the angry, jealous exgirlfriend? hahas. here goes-
you bloody narcissistic retard!! you really make me wonder if you really mean all those things you said to me a few months/weeks ago. zz.
or maybe let me be the one who is slightly concerned.
aiiyoh. yi kan jiu zhi dao ta shi yi ge si xing bu gai de nan ren. yi hui er shuo bu hui dui bu qi ta, the next moment jiu zuo chu le dui bu qi ta de shi. ni yao ren jia zhe me xiang xing ni de hua?
or maybe if i can tell the girl this.
he ah? hahhas. dont need take him back lahs. he has already shown you that he can hurt you once, and this means that he would be capable of hurting you a second time round, right? anyways.. he this kind of guy say the same thing to every girl de. hahas.
opps.
evil me.
pray that the gods dont kill me. hahhas..!
zz..
wadeva..
im off..! to play pool..! woots..! hahhas..! ^.^ buaiis.
p.s. if you think about it, it's true what, right?
Sunday, May 22, 2005
waa...
hahhas. was looking at the post yesterday. paiseh wor, people. hahhas. i came to the conclusion that it was just something to do with the date. hahhas. so be prepared for unusual outbursts on the particular date next month, okae? hahas. but if there isnt, then.. dont have lor. hahahs..!
anyways.. hahha. funny.
ms see found out that we broke. then she was asking me how i feel about it. then i told her 'i shall just take it as an experience'. i think she's appalled by what i said. =X hhahas. but it's true what. i mean, i cant possibly break down and cry and hurl abuses at him in front of her right, right? lols. agree with me, people..! =P
hahhahs.
tong hua so rocks..! ^.^
Saturday, May 21, 2005
why am i always so stupid?
i know i shouldntve click on that bloody link.
i know i should not be feeling sad over what happened.
i know i should be crying like siao now.
i know that you may not be talking about me.
but what the fuck.
it feels as though you are.
i hate feeling weak. i promised myself that no matter what happens, i wont cry. not for you. not for me. but why am i feeling like shit now? lols. has it got something to do with it being the 21st? hell. i dont know.
i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know idont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know
just that i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate this bloody fucking feeling.
hais.
blame it on myself. why did i go and fucking click on the link. why why why why why why why why why why why why why why??!!!
i know that it may not be talking about me. but it feels as though you are. so there goes my feelings.. arrgh.. i hate you for putting me through all these bullshit. you hurt me once. twice. [thrice?] but i still put up with it. god knows why. i couldve just walk out on it, after what you've done. i couldve KICKED your BALLS so that you cant reproduce. or maybe i can KICK your BALLS, call the ambulance let you recuperate and KICK you BALLS again.
ok i digressed.
i couldve walked out on everything. but why didnt i? i loved you, and i forgave you. was really happy when you started being more like the guy i once know. then it was the time for you to feel sad. you cant take it. lets face the fact alright? i DIDNT DO anything to hurt you. it was only TALK and no ACTION. whereas yours was BOTH TALK AND ACTION. who should be hurted more?! YOU? or ME?! narcissistic me screams ME!! and the WHOLE WORLD better KNOW IT! i didnt ask for the breakup. you did. dont know why everybody thought that it was ME.
again, i digressed.
hais.
blame it all on me then. im used to it..
sleeping soon.. nites..
today's a
special day.
^.^
why? is it cause it's the 21?
nahs.
it's because i manage to make waimun laugh. and it's quite an accomplishment to make her laugh over the net and over something i said. hahahas!
okae.
that part was kinda crap. am just typing that for the sake of typing something.
but i really did make her laugh, cause she said she was bored and i made the suggestion for her to run like a penguin, seeing the fact that it would be hard to run like a pig. and she's supposedly laughing her head off.
-.-"
IM NOT FUNNY!!
DONT LAUGH AT ME!!
yupps.
i think im mad too. =]
hahhas. someone better send me to
hougang chalet before i infect any more people with my madness.. -.-"
i digressed.
opps.
i guess i forgot to add in 'suppose to be'.
so it's "today's suppose to be a special day" hahhas..!
was crapping with alicia the other day. talked quite alot of stuff, like where would we end up, where would some people end up.. hahahs. damn funny.
happy hirthday
ANDREW!! ^.^ congratulations on becoming a year older and [hopefully =P] a year wiser [unlike some people whose intelligence seems to have stopped at the age of 4] !
hahahs.
if you are reading this, that is. =D
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
lols. was reading
xiaxue's blog about mastering the art of cuteness. lols. i didnt know that a doe-eyed look can make guys go gaga [if it's even
possible to make them confess that it looks cute]. neither did i know that dimples can be such a turn-on. -.-"
seriously.
what's it with being cute anyway? O.O
lols. =]
Monday, May 16, 2005
: basics____*
[o1]full name: Cheong Bei Jia
[o2]ur nickname: bj, jes, jiajia
[o3]bdae: 7june90. ^.^
[o4]place of birtth: hospital - duh.
[o5]horoscope: gemini
[o6]male or female: female
[o7]grade: sec 3
[o8]skool: zhonghua sec
[o9]occupation: student cum part time gymnast! woots! so rock!
[1o]wherre u live: sembawang..! so far from school..!! >.< !
apperance____*
[11]hair colour: black
[12]hair long or shortt: shoulder length..?
[13]eye colour: erm.. DARK brown..? very close to black.. but who can tell..? lols.
[14]skin colour: erm. tan? or like.. darker shade of creamy coffee..? lols. =X
[15]height: 160+? i have no idea. -.-"
[16]weight: shut up and go away..!
[17]shoe size: 5 or 6 bahs..
[18]braces: nopes! ^.^
[19]glasses: contacts.
[20]pierciings: 7- wahahahs.
[21]tattos: not yet? =D maybe will not lahs..
[22]righty or lefty: bothy..!
____*firstt
[23]kiiss: erm.. yea? in school? was a dare at nate's house- and it was a girl?! -.-"
[24]BF/GF: now dont have le. =]
[25]buddy: first buddy?! cant remember..
[26]award: some reading book thing? hahahs.
[27]sport u join: swimming? or isit wushu? O.O
[28]pet: 2 tortises which are dead?
[29]vacation: either malaysia or thailand..
[3o]concertt: hmm.. e k2 one, graduation concert? hahahs..!
____*favouriites [
[31]movies: coach carter![new fav] honey! hitch! boogeyman! shutter! lols..! many many more..!
[32]tv show: zong yi da ge da, ruhua, whose line isit anyway?
[33]colour: white, black
[34]band: blink 182, sum41, simple plan, linkin' park[not sure if considered band..?] hmms.. many more - cant remember
[35]song: almost here, tong hua, pieces of me, shadow, all the small things, girl, many many more..!
[36]food: anything, as long as it's delicious and edible.
[37]driink: coke, unfortunately
[38]candy:
LOLLIPOP!!!
[39]sportt tto play: basketball, swimming, running, badminton, gymnastics
[4o]sportt tto wattch: basketball, gymnastics
[41]brand of clothiing: billabong? 37deg? =D
[42]skool program: you say already- it's school, how can i like any programmes..?!
[43]aniimal: puppy. ^.^ sho cute..! hahahs. bulldog. =D
[44]pett: duno. hahahs. =D
[45]magazine: seventeen, teens, teenage
=+currently+=
[46]eating: air
[47]driikiing: saliva
[48]typiing: 'er'
[49]onliine: duh.. -.-
[50]liisteniing tto: girl all the bad guy wants. hahahs..!
[51]tiinkiiing boutt: what to reply to gaffar.
[52]wantiing tto: play pool! go back to gym chalet..
[53]watchiing: the computer screen.. -.-
[54]wearing: p.e. attire
+=future=+
[55]wantt kids: ..
[56]wantt tto gett marry: ...
[57]career iin miind: dj or dancer.
~*which ish better iin the opposiite sex*~
[58]cute or handsome/pretty: cute.
[59]lips or eyes: eyes
[60]hug or kiises: hug
[61]shortt or ttal: tall
[62]easygoiing or seriious: easygoing
[63]romantiic or spontanteous: more of spontaneous, with abit of romantic..? hahahs.
[64]fatty or skiiny: skinny? hahahs. anything, not too fat jiu hao le.
[65]hook up or relatiionshiip: relationship- duh. -.- i dont do hookups.
[66]sweet or cariing: both lahs..
[67]trouble maker or hestiantt wanz: hehs.. -.^ erm. how about.. knowing when to be mischievous?
~*have eu ever*~ / ~*believe in*~
[68]kiis a stranger: hmm. not that i know off?
[69]drank alcohol: duh..!
[7o]smoke: no way, no matter how much i want to. i wanna enjoy life.
[71]run away from home: -.-
[72]broken a bone: ewww.. chicken bone counted?
[73]gott an X-ray: ehs.. yeah.
[74]broken someone heartt: duno. there's always something called 'an wei' anyway. =]
[75]broke up witth someone: erm. almost one can anot?
[76]turned someone down: yeah.
[77]criied when someoe died: nopes. =]
[78]criied at skool: yeah. wasted tears. i couldve saved it for someone worthier.
[79]godd: duno
[8o]miracles: not really.
[81]love att firstt sightt: crush yes, love no
[82]ghostt: ehs..
[83]aliens: yeah - i am one..! lols.
[84]angels: yep
[85]heaven: yah..
[86]hell: duno.
[87]urself: whats there to believe in me..?
[88]kiisiing on the fiirstt datte: nopes.
[89]horoscopes: yeah. ahahs..!
[90]tIMe : 6.15pm
Sunday, May 15, 2005
yox~
im back..
done with feeling pissed. people like her are not worthy to be pissed about. just like people like him are not worthy to have brains. hahahs. it's so nice to diss people.. but imagine if you're the one being dissed. lols. whatever. i never said i that i was perfect, did i? -.- lols. it would have hurt me last time.. but now i just dont care. dont know why.. lols.
red hot chilli peppers' by the way is so weird.. hahas.. i mean.. what the hell are they saying? but the tune's nice. hahahs.. muahahahahha..!
hmm.. had tuition today.. hahahs.. was quite okae lahs. just that abit bored..? =X hahahs. yeah.. after tuition went out with joel. walked around looking for slingbag. woots. hahahs. then went to far east. did something im not supposed to. =X hahahs. naughty me. but who cares? hahahs..! i will just live my life the way i want it to be, and if you're too stupid to realise it, it's not my problem. *angelic smile* hahhas. hmm.. yeah.. lols. didnt do much buying at orchard, weirdly. hahahs..! hmm.. went to j8.. bought the 3/4 37deg pants that ive been eyeing for a long time. wootsie..! ^.^ hhhahahas.. then joel bought some stuff.. took some neoprints.. think that they are with joel. =]] looked so weird.. X.X iees. hahahs..! then went to northpoint.. saw marilyn while going home.. and now im home. rotting. yeahhs.. so boring, my day.. -.-" hahahs.
zz
lemme go and rot more. buaiis. ^.^
zz..
so pissed off.
haaahhas.
no mood to blog. zz..
Saturday, May 14, 2005
What's the story behind your name?
>> no particular story. ahahs
What do you like to do when you're sad?
>> listen to music. slp. hhahhas.
What do you want to name your future
child/children?
>> nvr tot abt it. -.-"
What makes you nervous?
>> anyth tt mks mii nervous mks mii nervous =]]
What makes you cry?
>> hmms.. wen some1 brks e trust. or wen gt smt REALLY touching. =]
Your wish when you last blew your
birthday candles?
>> cant rmb. almos a yr ago oredii lehs..
Do you follow fashion trends?
>> more or less bahs. but some i dun follow.
Have you ever ran away?
>> nope
Have you ever intentionally ignored
someone?
>> duh.
For how long?
>> v long, i tink.
Have you ever went on a romantic date?
>> hmmm.. define romantic?
When was the last time you received a
love letter?
>> does te one i recieved 3 weeks ago count..?
When was the last time you wrote a love
letter?
>> hav i even eva ritten one..?-.-"
If you could spend a whole week
anywhere you want, where would you go?
>> hmm. clubbing. swimming. visit al e nice places in the world. go EVERYWHERE...!
What do you think of your past?
>> my past? pretty interesting, with a few details which i tend to conveniently forget about
How did you spend yesterday?
>> playing pool lyk siao. [my legs hurt..!]
What time did you go to bed last night?
>> 2am.
Who was the last person who said good
night to you last night?
>> hmm.. yin wen bahs..?
What time did you wake up this morning?
>> 6.35am. -.-"
Do you know what woke you up?
>> hp alarm clk, duh. .
Who was the first person you saw this
morning?
>> mom
What did you have for breakfast?
>> mian sian w egg. n some fruitips..
What was the first song you listened to
today?
>> cant rmb. so mani great songs..!
What did you have for dinner last night?
>> yoshinoya
Did you go anywhere today?
>> yupps. town.
Did you make/receive any phone calls
today?
>> -.- wad a retarded q.
What did u wish for when you woke up
this morning?
>> i dun wish for anyth
Are u thinking about someone? Who?
>>tinking abt ___ ____ hahhas. =]]
what a sastifying day..
kinda just reached home.
woots.
ExAMS aRE oVEr!!!muahahas..!
as a form of celebration, i met waimun at amk [was late though.. -.-" paiiseh wors, make u wait so long.. =X] then took 852 down to bukit timah to meet yinwen and his friend. then went to bukit duno what there to play pool. then they left at 5 cause they got some stuff on.. then continue playing until 6pm like that, then left for orchard to meet nicholas. bleaghs. was late again [sorry..!! -.-""]. you see, it was peak hour. and this means that there are alot of cars jamming up the traffic? and this means that the bus cant really move..? lols. almost died on the way there. bleaghs.
okae. then met up with nicholas.. proceeded to p.s. to have dinner at yoshinoya [nicholas's treat!!]. then nicholas grumbling all the way there, cause have to walk.. -.-" lols. okae lahs. my fault again lors. -.-" wth.. hahahs..! okae lahs. then nelson met us there. then he like very tired like that.. that why when we go play pool he say he play for an hour then he go le. or else tomorrow [later in the morning] how to go gym. hmm. yupps. it's late now. but who cares? hahas. yeah. zz.. hahas. nicholas starting abit blur blur like cannot hit the cue balls like that. then me and him pairing even more jialat cause
im damn noob!!
hahahs. had great fun.
bro's camping now. lols.
hope he's having a fun time.
[[enjoy life]]
Thursday, May 12, 2005
art exam was like crap.
dun wanna talk about it. bleaghs.
anyway. after the exam went to n&b w jiayan maria n zhen wen. lols. ate beanncurd...! then duno how come suddenly talk about headless chicken ; make maria lose her appetite. muahahhs..! =D hahahs! evil me. lols. then they all leave le me and zhen wen walk back school there the 711 buy lollipop. then pass by the basketball court at the CC. hahas. she's so full of crap, everything also say 'sure anot?'. hahahs! then.. took bus to bishan..! woots! ^.^ hahhas. then continue from yesterday [stopped at ice lemon tee]. so farni. then saw ulric. he there alone. lols, then duno how come in the end tag along. then actually he looking for pencil box, so went to 77th street, 37deg,seiyu. then start pulling him to mini toons, mu-ee, action city. lols. in the end went down to long john silver to eat the fries. muahahahas! the fries very nice. from now on, im a loyal fan of long john silver fries..! ^.^ hahahs! crapp! then started imitating the people from next desk.. e.g play with water [ice], start cutting up the plates.. lols. sheesh. do i know her? hahahas! self-amusement so rock. =D hahahs
lalas~
tomorrow meeting yin wen and his fren at their school there with waimun. gona learn how to play pool. lols. i so suck at it. >.
yupps. that's about it. =]]
ta-s! gd luck to everybody, especially literature students, for tomorrow's exam. it's the final metre! stretch your necks or hands or whatever out and touch the finishing line! woots.
o yeah. today's history exams wasnt that bad. but still, i have like no time..? -.-" bleaghs. hahahs.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
[[and im not going to cry or breakdown
am just going to walk away from it all
leaving everything behind
start a new life somewhere without you
living my own life
doing things my own way
and im not going to look back and say
'i regretted letting you go'
cause im going to enjoy living my own life
so if you're wondering why am i not begging you
this's probably why]]
found this somewhere. =) lols.
forever does not exist in my dictionary.
wahahs..!
fri going to kena ps.. bleaghs.. think that nobody going.. -.-" hahahs. too bad lor. the most i just bring discman out. then go alone. woots. hahhas. spastic..!
anyways.. today's paper was tough. confirm fail..! X.X
hmms.. keep thinking about what me and zhen wen discussing.. hahahs. seriously lahs.. what's the use of having a brain when you waste it on other stuff? sure, got something called 'brotherhood'. but then really
c o n t r a d i c t o r y. brothers are suppose to
keep you away from harm. and not join you in helping to harm other people. or whatever crap that can happen in life.. but then the term of brotherhood i talking about now is like.. completely opposite. hahs. okae. so maybe im only taking things at superfacial value..? lols. tell me if it's true. =))
anyways.. sn. why you want to know who it is ..? tell me? leave a tag or whatever. or maybe you can just ignore me. =]]
do you say the same thing to every girl..?
was going home with zhen wen today. then talked about how come some people are blessed with the brains. but then refuses to use them to their [good] advantage. then talk until if like got brain transplant what will happen. like will the person who get the transplanted brain will get any memories, then will think like the 'donor' anot. and stuff like that. then very funny. keep laughing.. cause say like if hit the head. then will forget some basic stuff like 1+1=2, but can remember some chim stuff like logarithm and crap like that.. lols, then the whole bus very quiet, like listening to us talk like that.. but i think that everybody just wishing that we would just shut up.. hahhas..!
all the chim chim stuff.. lols.
also talked about how come girls always say want to forget about the past but keep thinking about it.. lols. actually true lahs.. hahahs.
okae.
shut up go away.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
whees~
thanks jeremy, for the song!
wahahs..!
finally got the song almost here by delta goodrem and brian macfadden.
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost hereI would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost hereBruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
i shall wait till next time. when everything's confirmed [as in like. i really really hate you], then i shall blog everything bad about you..! wahahhs..!
okae..
know what?
forget it.
hahahs.
as i said before, my brains have left me..!!
mood swings!! hahahs..! sleeping soon..
going to lalaland~
wootsie. ^.^
wo jue de hen
m a o d u nahh..!
i want to take the gun and shoot myself in the head..! but then.. it's really stupid, considering the fact that almost half of the exam has like, gone by?
okae.
what the fuck.
hahha.
my brains has abandoned me..!!
ahh.. just woke up from a nap.. now munching on some sausages [found 3 cans of them in the cupboaard and decided to boil one can of them- wahahs].. mMm.. nice. more!!
guess what else i found in the cupboard?
FRUiTIPS!! in packs of 3!! omg!! seriously am so happy about them..! wahahhs.. finally some sweet to boost my brainpower tomorrow morning..! wootsie! ^.^ hahahs..!
okae. it sounds weird.
my actual intention was to say that my sugar supply depleting, and the fruitips would help, especially in the morning. =]
lols.
girl by destiny's child so ROCK!! wowee! all the girl power songs so rock! ^.^
ahh!!
bored..!!
friday night..!
stupid niao niao says dont want to go if three people only.. bleaghs. you go then more than 3 liao.. looks like i need to ask more peeps..? hahas. crap. i only ask 2 person what.. hahahs. i just wanna go out on that night. no matter where i go. just out..! whahhs.
just bought a clear plastic holder for my ezlink card. gona use some white or black paper do some designs to cover up my fugly face. hahahs. i like that phrase -
FUGLY FACE! lols. sounds nice. ^.^
in case you're wondering, yupps, im
MENTAL!! *loud evil laugh*
ahhas.
that's enough evidence/proof right? =PpPp
in such good mood. i wonder why.. hahhs. -_-"
anyways.. todya's chinese wasn't that bad, considering the fact i did not study and the most i did was to flip through and briefly scribble down words only up till chapter.. 7..? when there are like.. 14 chapters..? hahahs. im amazed. anyways.. wo zhi cuo le..! wo gai chi hui zhao yi dian
du shu!! ahh..!! hahhas..!
[someone please book me into
IMH for my birthday please?]
muAhahahsh..!!
yupps. that should be on my wishlist hors..? hahahs. zzz.. tomorrow. lalas~
ta-s.
need to do my art. X.X
buaiis.
hugs* [hug blog..?! O.O am i mental or am i mental?]
Monday, May 09, 2005
wahahs. getting fat on chocolate chip milky bar by nestle.it so rock. hahha!haven't study my chinese yet.. am prepared to fail tomorrow :) lols.wth.. -.-" must have postitive thinking, girl..! lols..yeah.. as though this kind of world would leave room for positive thinking..? -.-"
lols.
[my f.a.n.t.a.s.y. world] it would be like -
okae. it wont be my fantasy if i shae it with you right? hahhas..! =PpPpp
^.^
i love myself. for being able to bounce back up so quickly.
i pei fu myself..
tomorrow's chinese and i still not revising..
bleaghs.
totally no mood.. today's paper was like shit. hope the teacher don't vomit blood while marking it. lols. i doubt that they would be able to survive marking my paper..? lols.. zzz. physics was crap. zz.. anyways.. after the paper today.. was so undecided. lols. got maria to come with me and waimun. then we were at the zebra crossing.. trying to decide between eating opposite or at mac or n&b. o-ya-bay-ya-som then left maria and waimun to scissors-paper-stone with each other. 3times. maria won 2-1. lols. then almost reaching there came another problem.. at mac or n&b..? lols. see which one less people.. but in the end went to mac, cause saw tedson zx timo[er] soon rui they all there. bev and the other girls [yupps, including noel] were all at the other side. lols. then while getting our meal that time timo[yeo] leeyen tricia michelle all come in. then they sit at the table next to us. lols. had quite alot of fun laughing about some stuff concerning a vulg word. onli we all know. though i think that people from other people would have heard it, judging from the way we laughed and gasp out the word. hahahs..! managed to get maria laughed for quite a long time. woots! ^.^ hahahs! made somemore spastic jokes about each other.. then decide to go home..
wahahs.
today so rock. qing tian zhen shi tou. hahhas..! -_-" pardon me for my lameness. really, it's just me. =)) hahhas..! whees~
` ` closemyeyesandpretendthateverythingsalright
sheesh.. whats wrong with me..
slow reaction rate..
better go see doc..
hais.. mus study chi..
hope i can still see after all these cryinghais.. feel so contradicted..
i miss you.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
i HATE people who think that they are cool.
ESPECIALLY those who thinks that speaking vulgarities are COOL, and the purpose of having a girlfriend is to SHOW OFF to your friends. to these kind of people: GET A LIFE. she's your GIRLFRIEND. not your PROPERTY to show off to EVERYONE.
i HATE people who HARRASS my friends. ESPECIALLY when in the end get them into trouble. ASSHOLES. JERKS. WHAT THE FUCK. x kena trouble you still BLAME x. GET A LIFE. you guys got x into trouble first. ASSHOLES. thank god x didnt go down the road of self-destructtion. or else i would NEVER forgive you guys for it.
cb.
i really duno how to say.. wait till next post when im more calm.. and can think straight.. then i let my anger overflow.. wahhahas.
i dont care who i offend liao le.
whack me also can. think i care? get a life. -.- ive got much better things to do than to care about small fries like you guys.
repressed feelings suddenly surging up
making its way to the surface
yet the mask above the skin is too thick to break
leaving the feelings to bubble underneath the surface
one day
it will break loose
and it would be like a volcano eruption taking place
alan: electricity comes from electron then morality comes from moron??
ahh..
went to friendster and found this -->
Makes you think...you never
know what
the other person is thinking....speak your
mind..KEEP IT REAL....
BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today
BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares
BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him
BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend
BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right
now
BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting
to
cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me
BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it
BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it
BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend
BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug
BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried
BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him
>>> If you are in love with someone/still
are in
love
with someone, pass this on<<<
at this very minute~~
someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you.
someone misses you
someone wants to hold your hand.
someone wants you to be happy.
someone wants to hug you.
someone will do anything for you.
someone needs to know your love is
unconditional.
someone wants to tell you how much they
care.
someone wants to stay up watching
movies
w/ you.
someone wants to hold you in their arms.
someone wants to see you.
someone wants to be your lover.
someone loves you for who you are.
someone loves the way you make them
feel.
someone wants to be with you.
someone wants you to know they are
there for
you.
someone is glad that you're their friend.
someone is wishing you would notice
them.
someone wants to get to know you better.
someone loves you.
interesting,aye?
i looked at the sky today and realised that some of the clouds look detached.
lols.
abit weird.
but it looks nice.
would be better if there's the sun though.
but then and again, one must learn to be contented with what one has.
okae. not really applicable.
but.
whatever.
hahahs!
it was so scary today..
orchard road is like so deviod of teens.. all i see are grown-ups and families pushing babies on prams and holding onto the hands of toddlers. X.X scary..
stupid midyears.
hahhas.
everybody's staying at home to study and stuff like that. zzz.
sheesh.
cant wait for next week to be over.
then can celebrate by going out with friends and stuff until late into the night. okae. maybe on friday only cause school,homework and stuff like that would start up again. zzz.. bleaghs.
most important thing though, is to enjoy the moment. yet not let our brains rot. unlike somebody. lalas~
better go study mua physics liao..! ^.^
bye.
cross our fingers and wish each other luck
and the rest is up to us to play our part
hmm..
was looking through friendster.. and then i realised that alot of 'cool' people has got a 'xiao2' infront of their names.. erm. is that suppose to increase your 'cuteness' cause you know that you don't have any? or isit suppose to be pronounced 'xiao4' to imply that you are 'crazy'?
okae okae. dont think that you guys understand what the hell i talking about.. lols. X.X
it's not that i hate you. but it's just that everytime i hear your voice and see you, gosh. i feel like running to the toilet throwing up. sheesh.. eww... im risking my life just by writing about this, you know? goodness knows how many nightmares i would get aferwards. oh yeah. and the guy who picked that girl to be your gf..? i sincerely hope she's not playing with your feelings.
she looks as though she would screw someone just for the sake of screwing.hahs..
jealous me?
*laughs like hyena*
i think not.
just the lame old me expressing my view.
hahhshhshahhahas...! honestly.. jealous..! Lolss...!
Saturday, May 07, 2005
[[it's okae. we undestand. shit happens.]]
i love that sentence. i dont know why..! hahhs..!
i wish that there's this medcine called the motivator.
it would be really helpful for everybody. especially those who need it to get through the day..
scenerio 1:a lazy studdent who constantly refuses to do his homework [btw: why are examples of lazy students always a he..? lols.] - pops that pill.. and suddenly all the homework are done..! the teacher would be happy cause she dont need to chase after the student for homework anymore. the student would be happy cause there are no more angry teachers breathing down his neck everytime he fails to hand in assignments.. the parents would be happy cause there are no more telephone calls from angry-pms-filled teachers. heck.
everybody would be happy...!
scenerio 2: a worker who constantly feels that he's under lots of stress and dont feel like reporting for work everyday. but still, for the sake of his rice bowl, he drags himself to work with that look of a dead zombie and a pessimistic outlook on life, causing everybody to see him to feel zombie-like [this affects the work productivity - attitudes affect the working rate]. but after he takes the motivational pill.. he would be motivated to face the job in the office, have a better attitude. which would make him smile more.. everybody would be happy with the end result of happier workers, better productivity.
thus. i can conclude that if a motivation pill exist, it would do good to the world. [if it's not abused by drug do-ers.]
lols..
my biggest piece of crap ive ever done.. -.-"
pardon me for being so lame.
i seriously have zero motivation now.
and ive got loads of physics yet to go through.. bleaghs..
cant believe im still sitting here and typing away
happily.
zz..
lols.
was thinking of gym chalet last year.. wahahahs.. happy memories.. so shiok.. cant wait for gym chalet this year...! >.< !! hahhas...
lalas~ hahahs..!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
just to clearify stuff.
im not mad or feeling insulted.
lols.
it was just for fun that i posted my last [last?] post.. -.-" hahhas
so chill.
im not angry or insulted by you guys.
seriously.
!!
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
i wanna scold u left right center up and down.
you
idiot!!!!
okae.
if balloon face's suppsoe to look like me.. does it mean that im balloon face too..? hahahs
if any1 looks like a moron dancing next to her [u guys should know who i talking about
.. does it mean that i look like a moron?
ahem.
just some stuff that i realised yesterday..
yupps. it happened a long time ago. but yeah. im slow.
so.
who cares?
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
arrgh.
go away.
i hate being like a sponge. soaking up everything [emotional wise]. now i dont even know how i'm feeling. bleaghs. this sucks. feeling sad but can't cry cause no tears will come. feeling angry but can't hit out at anyone or anything cause the anger felt isn't enough to hold onto. feeling moody but can't stay moody for long cause some stuff just makes me smile. feeling happy but can't stay happy for long cause some stuff just makes me sad.
peeps reading this. don't even try to think what the hell i'm talking about. just expressing how my feelings are these few days/weeks. nothing significant.
hahs.
mood swings.
go away.
i wanna hug something. hold on to something. the lifeline to my sanity. to remind me why i'm in this world.
hahs.
lols.
GeminiThe Bottom Line
So work's frustrating -- keep your trap shut and start updating that resume.
In Detail
You feel completely in tune with each and every person you meet. It's almost as if you can read their minds. Your friends might kid you about it, but you'll soon discover that your feelings were right on the money. So when a certain someone approaches you with a tender missive you've been expecting all along, you'll have a response rehearsed and ready to go -- the kind that will let them down gently and leave them thinking that if you weren't already attached, you'd be accepting their offer.
ahem. what's that suppose to mean?
hahahs. whatever. geminis in general. missing out on me cause im too insignificant. lols. ^.^
Yox,wahaha,nw using waimun hp to blog.kkaes.her eye gtting bigger n bigger.hahas.relax. =)) byes. Ltr she kil me =X
Yox,wahaha,nw using waimun hp to blog.kkaes.her eye gtting bigger n bigger.hahas.relax. =)) byes. Ltr she kil me =X
Yox,wahaha,nw using waimun hp to blog.kkaes.her eye gtting bigger n bigger.hahas.relax. =)) byes. Ltr she kil me =X
Monday, May 02, 2005
bleaghs.
im so bloody screwed. lols. apprently so due to the fact that i cant remember
all of the factors..? what the hell.. can remember lahs, but i think that it would take about 45 min just to remember one whole bloody point..?! sheesh.. DEAD..
am so going to need help tomorrow for people to jump start my brain. hahhas.
zzz..
cant believe i can still sit down here and cut my nails so leisurely. goodbye nails.
[[what's coming but never does?]]
lols. desmond asked me that. hahahs..! im smart! i got the answer right at one go. lols..!
lalas~
my good mood spoiled when i read someone's blog.
SIAN!! wtf..
all the bad memories coming back liao.. hahahs. gona sleep it off tonight. and when tomorrow comes, everything's gona be alright.
am going to go crazy over lollipop tomorrow..! wootsie! ^.^
wahahhas.
brother playing caesaer. dont think is spell like that..? lols. whatever? anyways.. the sound effects so cute..hahhas..! but i prefer sims city. would be better if it was the sims.. iee.. so long never play the sims liao le..! i wanna play the sims..! lols..! if only i have unlimited amount of money..! then i can have everything that i want in the world. okae. maybe not so. i mean, somethings are unattainable with money what right..? like, love? -.-" yeah. the most used example of all.. but it's true.. okae. maybe can lahs.. like say.. actually the person fell in love in your money.. then overtime come to love you..? yepps. okae. but then in the end still like money first.. hahahs. what the hell.. lalas~
i wanna get kelly clarkson's cd...! i wanna her song..! lalas..~
ok k.. i go watch tv/read social studies already.
can die liao le lahs.. tomorrow's exams and i'm still sitting down here, typing away so song-ly. lols.
i luv this song. so applicable..!lols..!
"Lonely"Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin
I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll
Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely
am bored. went to friendster. found this:
1. Find this survery stupid? heh. this's a survey?
2. Name: b.j.
3. Chi Name: cbj
4. Nicks: zz..
5. Surname: cheong
6. Birthday: o6o79o [hint]
7. Place of Birth: hospital ^.^
8. Sign: gemini [rocks!]
9. Male or Female: Female - do i look like anything else other than that?
10. Occupation: Student bleaghs
11. Residence: a block of lego sets
12. Screen Name(s): bj_* jes ava
__Your Appearence___
13. Hair Color: black.
14. Hair Long or Short: medium?
15. Eye Color:
dark brown
16. Skin Color: tan
17. Height: 160+? hopefully.
18. Weight: is a secret. =]
19. Shoe Size: 5 or 6
20. Braces?: nopes. i gt pERfEct dEntal dEpArtmEnt, whiCh i lOve to rEmind evEry1..! ^.^ opps. evil mii..!
21. Glasses?: duh.
22. Piercings: 7
23. Tattoos: nt yet? =X
24. Righty or Lefty: both oso can. but right better
___Your 'Firsts'___
25. First Kiss: this year
26. First B.F/ G.F: this year
27. First Buddy: my stuffed toy?
28. First Award: did i ever get an award?
29. First Sport U Joined?: hmm.. was it martial arts or swimming..?
30. First pet: toritse.
31. First Vacation: somewhere around 5 years old..?
32. First Concert: hahhas. last year. =$
___ Favorites___
33. Movie: absolute fave, moulin rogue.
34. TV Show(s): zong yi da ge da bahs..
35. Color: black.
36. Band: lp, simple plan. n much mroe. =D
37. Song: would take more than a day to list them all out
38. Food: food. ^.^
39. Drink: COKE!!
40. Candy: LOLLIPOP!!!
41. Sport To Play: swimming. running. badminton.
42. Sport To Watch: gymnastics
43. Brand Of Clothing: billabong. op? lols.
44. Store: addidas. 77 street.
45. School Program: hah.
46. Animal: puppy.
47. Book: cant remember.
48. Magazine: erm. seventeen? teens? teenage? O.O
___Currently___
49. Eating: air molecules
50. Drinking: saliva
51. Typing: typing.
52. Online?: -.-
53. Listening To: perfect10.
54. Thinking About: declaration of independence. lols.
55. Wanting To: find some1/people to slack with. lols.
56. Watching: the monitor
57. Wearing: my pj pants n shirt.
___Your Future___
58. Want Kids?: erm.
59. Want to Get Married?: erm.
60. Careers in Mind: anything to do with media or dancing. hiphop dance, that is.
__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___
67. Cute or pretty: erm. cute? considering e fact that im a girl..?! O.O
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes.
69. Hugs or Kisses: hugs
70. Short or Tall: eh. avg
71. Easygoing or serious: ezgg. duh.
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous
73. Fatty or Skinny: hahhas. beta if skinny. lols. =D
74. Sensitive or Loud: tactful
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship. duh.
76. Sweet or Caring: both
77. Trouble Maker or Hestiant One: balance.
___Have You Ever___
78. Kissed a Stranger: nt really stranger. she was my pri sch fren [it was a DARE. im nt les.]
81. Ran Away From Home: nt yet
82. Broken a Bone: nt yet
84. Broken Someones Heart: ask him
85. Broke Up With Someone: someone broke
up with me.
86. Turned Someone Down: eh. yeah? =X sry?
87. Cried When Someone Died: nah
88. Cried At School: duh.
___Do You Believe In___
89. God: i have no idea. =]
90. Miracles: hmm. duno?
91. Love At First Sight: erm. attraction at first sight? hahas.
92. Ghosts: not really.
93. Aliens: not really
94. Angels: yupps.
95. Heaven: ..
96. Hell: ..
97.Yourself: all the more i shouldnt trust myself.
98. Horoscope: okae lahs. fun to read
__Answer Truthfully__
99. Is there someone you like now & want but you
know you cant have that person at all?: hmm.. yupps. cause i dont think that he likes me. onli yiling yinwen nelson wil noe this. ^.^
100. Is there someone you trust most & yet abuse
your trust?: trusted. abused.
okae.
just changed the template.. hmm.. not really done with it yet.. e tagboard looks fugly. X.X eww.. am so gona change it. zzz.. wahahs.
disclaime: in case you think it's directed at someone, no it's not. ^.^
lols.
too cautious. but what the hell. =]
lalas~
time to pia all my homework already.
lols. bad time management..? hahhs. whatever?! -.- so fun..
sheesh. my brian's being
fried...!
should be chainging layout soon. hahas.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
for some strange reason, i'm blogging instead of doing my homework.
lols.
yeahs. -.-"
lets cross our fingers and hope that i don't get slaughtered by any particular teachers on wednesday. o yeah. tuesdays too.
is the school
crazy?! god. 'lessons will resume after tueday's advance paper' god. and they are wondering why we are failing all our tests horribly. it's not due to the poor time management. okae. yeah. maybe so. but then and again, how on earth do we get a studying schedule and stick to it when the school trips you up in every attempt? O.O hello? okae. so maybe i haven't got a schedule. but what the hell. i wake up, i plan for the day. like maybe, go home do this, do that. so maybe the day is tuesday. and we have assembly on that day. assembly ends late due to the fact that the school decided to squeeze several performances together and gave us extra singing just cause they felt that the girls arent singing as loudly as the boys. which resulted in our late dismissal and then the screwing up of our time.
agreed?
breathe to agree..
see?
the whole world's agreeing with me..! [with exception to those dead and lying 6feet underneath]
erm.
okae. i really digressed
alot. -.-
how si bai can i get..?!
lols..
[[ni yong yuan zai wo de xing li]]
but at least ni hai you ni wan mei de jie ju..?
what the hell..
shall attempt to write my whole blog in han yu pin yin next time. ^.^